the last day in may

everything was as usual... i couldn't make a decision for tomorrow activities. it seem like too much crush on the same day. it is kinda difficult because all of them attract me. however, i finally decide something which is more important. i was alone when i attended physics class. mei yen dumped me *haha* she absent because no transport. well, i sit with some one else which actually is my friend's friend. today class was damn silent. too little people if compared with tuesday one.

my dearest dad complaint just now. i have just told him my activities during the holidays. he only comment that im too bahagia. secretly write here, i hasnt tell him completely. now im thinking, how i gonna tell him the rest. should i cancel some of them? i got no idea. i just claimed RM110 from him and that was only for the days after exam.

朋友。。

i will blog this in chinese.. easier for me to express...

这几天，表面上我与平常没有分别，还是一样和朋友们嘻皮笑脸。。

但是，私低下我在想，

在这个世界里，人真的很善变。

今天的他，可以和你聊得很开心， 但是过了今天，很有可能一切都变了。

变得很恐怖，令人止步。

无可否认，人可以是很好的生物，亦非常可怕。

我不算是经过很多风风雨雨的人。

但是，一点点的见识，让我对这个世界上所有的人，

都有了戒心。

我不可以再全心全意的信任某一个人。

有谁懂，可能有那么的一天，

他会把你害得很惨。

朋友，也是一样。。。

我可以毫无顾虑的与朋友相处。

但是你们不觉得坦诚相对比较好吗？

要是有什么事情都不说，

把一切的一切都收藏在心底，

又有谁会知道？

朋友，是生活里小小的点缀。。

但是这小小的点缀要是消失了，

生活就没有意义了。

这也意味着，朋友虽然只是个小元素，

但却非常重要。

朋友，

能够相识是我们的缘分。

对我而言，

只要一切尽心尽力，

不做违背良心的事情，

友情自然会长久。

或许有人会觉得我再写着他，

但是，我可以保证，

这只是我突然有感而发所写的。

绝对没有针对任何一个人及任何一件事。

this is my school...

my school hall

dataran integrasi

pond

countdown for exam..

enjoyable day

holiday is gonna start soon.. after exam, no lesson in school. for thursday, we had something called piala khalani and karaoke in school. today, celebration for teacher's day (telematch and performance). kinda fun because we can feel the holiday mood. before celebration started, we watched movie in hall. for the first time, i watched ghost movie, coming soon in school. unfortunately, near the ending mr john stopped us and said we should continue next time.we proceed to the field and watch the telematch between students and teachers. they played some games and they were crazy about it. here are some photos~

sample for one of the presents

ear ring for teacher

one of the games

another game, eat watermelon without using hand

after they ate the watermelon

teacher was searching for chair to sit

karaoke on thursday. first person on stage

yen ming

melissa and yen ming

lek thow

wen hui

performance for teacher's day celebration by pengawas

mr john's perfomance

kelab kebudayaan( dance )

singing from new teachers

cutting cakes

1...

2...

3...

happy teacher's day~

after school, me and my classmates went leisure mall to watch night at the museum 2. met quite many friends there and my friend was very envied because he bought ticket earlier than me but his seat in cinema was near the screen.. my friends and i manage to watch the movie at the second last row comfortably.

have lunch in wong kok

my day

today is my day.. i had an unforgettable experience with mei yen and peak hui. three of us decided to go to central market right after school. but, we dont have enough cash. Huay Yau borrowed us RM50 and Mei Yen got RM50 also. actually we went there to buy teacher's day present. since it is last year, we do something which is memorable. firstly, we went tasik selatan by bus and central market by KTM. we are not sure whether to take LRT or KTM. we tried everything on our own. finally, we are safe and reach home happily.

on the way to central market, nothing special happen. while we wait for our present to be done, three kampung girls walked to petaling street and have our lunch there. we follow our feeling because not even sure the direction. long time i didnt step into petaling street and so too with my friends. after walked for a long time, we sat down in a restaurant to eat. i wish to go to eat in air-cond restaurant but peak hui said doesnt have that kind of atmosphere. *haha* then we walked around and around 330pm, we went back to CM. our presents were not done yet. we look around inside there and i like that place. next time, i will visit CM again.

something which is very funny happen soon... after bought ticket to go back tasik selatan, we went back to the place before and wait for the train. we are so silly... we never think that the same place cant fetch us back. we are totally panic... we asked a girl but she is not sure also. at last, we got help from a man and he told us to wait behind the place we came down. ........... after that, we saw a train coming... we rushed downstairs and peak hui quicky went into the tain while im trying to ask for the destination. i heard someone said this train is going to Klang. soon, the door started to close and i quickly asked peak hui to come out. i dont want to take risk and reach somewhere that i dont know. the train was gone and we are told to wait for the seremban train to come. three of us were like those kampung girls. however, it is better than those who dare not to try.

this is the day where i dont have enough cash with me, accidentaly become kampung girl. but it is still very fun. also, i get my add maths paper today. for the very first time, i get 73 marks. when i calculated my own marks, im so touch... really happy. i believe i can do better next time.

THIS IS MY DAY!!!

mid night for me 1040pm

just came back from tuition and because of some reason, i cannot sleep first. i am so tired. online + blog for fun, finally choose to appear offline. some people is so free, when i online, he will send same things to me and keep on nudge me. very troublesome!!!

i am free!!!

basically, exam was ended one hour ago.. im so so happy because i can throw away my books temporary. i have been one month didnt go shopping and watch movie. staying in house everyday to study really kill me. luckily i can withstand this kind of 'pressure' . *hehe* tomorrow will have another two silly subjects to be tested. civic and PJ. who actually care about it? before physics3, they sit for account paper. we forced to shift out because 5S1 is used as exam hall. 5S2 was so crowded. me, peak hui and amanda sit near the front door and study. after a while, we started to chat. but time flies very slow. we waited, waited and waited, finally time for recess. after that wait for 45 minutes some more. 1130am, then only exam. the teacher very strange. keep on ask us to check. she asked me, done? i said ya. then she said, if finish then double check. ==

i wish to thank those who sent me all the tips. because of the tips, it made my life easier. for this exam, i dont have enough time to revise. without the tips, i will die badly after holiday. Aun Yee, Zheng Kween, Soon Yin, Mei Yen, Peak Hui, Poh Li and Joe Hui, really thanks you all. i received AY and ZK's message almost for the whole week. their tips were super accurate. if i can score well, they are my saver. for the coming holiday, first week gonna be my enjoy+relax time. on second week, i will follow my parents to go johor. when i come back to KL, i will make friend with all my beloved books again. i will treat them very good and so too with them.

now, i am planning with mei yen where to go during holiday. sunway? pavillion? both? except for monday coz of tuition, my first week already full. i will be the happiest and my dad will extremely upset.

mira, me and sarah

obviously, today is saturday. i am writing nonsense because i am getting crazier of two things. 1) add maths tuition homework. 2) physics test on monday and tuesday. yesterday, i did trigo identities from 7-10pm. however, i cant prove any of them. so, again i cried because i failed to do homework. if im not mistaken, i do so for last time when im in form2. after so many years, i repeat it again. my whole family were so curious about my strange action. they dare not to ask because they know that i will cry more if they ask. finally, i told my dad my predicament. he told me to relax and forget about the add maths since i will sit for physics test on monday. he suggested me to do revision first. well, i have plan to finish the homework and do revision at weekend. i know that i dont have time. normally, i cant study after 9pm. the only way is that i use my afternoon time wisely. at night, i will throw away my books unless i do not feel sleepy. around 1030pm, is time for me to sleep. my friends will know that i wont sacrifice my bed time no matter what happen on the next day.

when i cry, he called me several times. he comfort me, hoping that i will stop crying. successfully, he did it. i even laughed when he was talking to me. in my 17 years of life, he is the second one. but im not to mean that he is very important for me. that moment he totally transform. he prefer to bully me rather than take care of me.

today morning, i revised for physics. before when to tuition, i tried the add maths again. so happy was that i can prove two of them easily, without referring to the formula. but then because im too happy, i tend to continue do it and late to meet ke xin in tuition centre. so sorry nia~ we promised to discuss before english tuition starts. at there, i managed to solve three of them, left only one for me to explore. i was really happy coz im not that stupid actually. after tuition, i start to continue revising physics until 9pm. i was almost finished waves chapter. if everything run smoothly, before 12pm tomorrow, my work will done. then i will do exercise and study again for those tough topic. hopefully by monday, i will get better and clearer idea for all the teory.

suddenly, think back the time in kuantan. all my friends are apart from me. this is an undeniable truth. time can change everything. we seem like stranger now. if there is a chance for us to meet, i think we dont have any same topic because for these few years, i dont know how many changes happened in our school and what kuantan had transform to...

i miss him. not because of what else reason but is he appear in my life everyday. when one day lost contact, feel like kinda uncomfortable. three days already... i know his hp confiscated by his mum. once, it use to be like that. i thought it wont happen again.. but many thing is unexpected. i asked him to give me his msn password, unexpected, he gave me. he told me he break up with his gf becoz of me, but i know he wont, unless i really accept him. i know him quite well just that he dont want to admit. he told me when he is moody, he will feel happy again becoz of me. this is a truth. i can make him happy. he told me he really love me, but when i ask him why he dont want to break up with his gf, he dont want to answer me. he told me he want to go out with me, want to see me. but not everytime i promise him... he told me many many things... he called me yesterday night, purposely want to tell me he got no phone to contact me. i knew it earlier... but i played a fool on him and said, "if u got heart, u will use public phone to call me" around 12am, he called again.. i missed his call coz hp cant wake me up.

second last paper tomorrow!!!

is chemistry....

waiting the last day to come

holiday as reward

in going to reward myself a holiday on tomorrow.. happily, no exam for all science stream students. so as a student being so hardworking for more than a week, i need one day off but then since Wednesday continue exam, i will stay at home to read sejarah, a little bit on chemistry paper 3 and so with biology paper 3. today biology papers are really a killer. for the first time i feel that this subject is damn tough. for a minimum of A2, 130 out of 200 marks. is it possible? when i got confident on certain subject, sure there is another subject that make me dissapoint. this is not the first time and i dont know when gonna be the last time! left only sejarah, chemistry and physics. good luck for myself and all form5 students out there.

biology

who can help me? whole day, i study for biology. now not even finish and my brain cannot afford to put in something else... my brain is fill with the word, CELL. this time i choose to revise from reference book instead of text book. i still have one more chapter to go which is the topic about locomotion... most probably i will continue on tomorrow, then is time for chemistry~ so glad that physics is the last one. i can use fri, sat and sun to revise... almost time for me to sleep... hopefully everything will be better tomorrow...

one week is gone

the moon is so beautiful

one week is over.. i had finished 6 subjects and is so so happy + worry... happy coz weekend is coming, worry coz next week is time for biology, chemistry and sejarah, 8 papers all together... i cant imagine what will happen to us, all science stream students. just now when answering moral, i try my best to do slowly but still got 45minutes left. i look around and saw my neighbour, wei xin and melvin finished very early. then the rest still doing until last minute.

before moral paper start, i found that soon yin is absent. then i asked jiah li where is she. she also dont know so i told mei yen lo. we get her number from aun yee and call her. she told us she just wake up. gosh, around 7.45am already. finally she can make it and reach school at 8pm. we laugh her and someone ask her is it she took aeroplane to school. after recess, i plan to study sejarah one. but group of us turn it into chating world and afterwards, gather around teacher to see her marking our add maths. she finished 5S2 paper and the highest mark is 73 out of 80. what a high marks and when teacher mark mine, my first 3 pages of question already loses more than 7 marks. we told teacher that paper 2 is much more easy than paper 1. but she said that we left out paper 1 so easy question also dont know how to do.

then we also plan to go out right after exam. kim said she want to watch the alien vs monster (anime). but i want to watch 17 again and so with night at the museum 2!! i really want to reward myself during the term holiday and so sorry with my dad because i am going to make hole in his wallet. suddenly, mei yen said :' xiao hwa, everyday i also see u'. she is right. on monday to friday, i see her in school, same class, next to me. then on saturday and sunday we tuition english and physics together. really everyday... some more she sometimes will go out with me. the plan for after exam, we want to go sunway. but both of us also say at last only we are going... no kaki. everytime also same person.... recently like to listen to farmer's song... very cute leh~

just now when i listen to my fm, malaysia is confirm to has first case of H1N1... the person came back from america... something happen with my daily counter... i need to make a new one~ T.T

online

finally, it started to rain.. early in the morning, i was so happy until although i dont know how to answer my add maths, i do not feel down. but soon yin thought i got confidence to score A. already many days drought. i hate it very much especially in school becoz i forced to change my seat. the stupid seat is so hot. i will sweat although i sit there silently to write essay. it makes me very uncomfortable. well, add maths paper was quite easy. easy for paper 2. i need not to worry. *i hope so* then, tomorrow is moral... now only i know it takes two and a half hour. i can guaranty i can finish it within one to one and a half hour, plus checking. si, what i gonna do during the free time?

before school dismiss, may teng said i will online later. ya, she is right. but then something happen and it mess up my plan. i plan to online until 3pm then start to memorise the definisi and do some exercise. one hour later, i will do revision on sejarah. unfortunately, TNB was upgrading just now. they cut off the electricity supply. i cant online plus too hot. i waited and waited... around 6pm, everything back to normal. i really cant concentrate in hot condition, without table and lamp.

suddenly i found that, this diagnostic is not everything. for intervention, my school arrange the timetable and make it like two or more subjects in one day. i have no chance to give uop on certain subject.well now is totally different, only one subject in one day. i can concentrate fully for all of them. just that depends on me whether want to study or not. *keke* juast like now, i plan to revise sejarah and blame TNB coz mess up my plan. actually i very lazy to read. i repeated many times and feel bored. however i cant remember all those facts. i only do some exercise to strengthen my memory.

going to really study bye~

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quite a long time didnt update my blog.. cant online anyway~ finally dignostic starts... today sit for english paper. this subject can consider as my weakest subject. everytime, english, physics and add maths are the subjects i worry the most.... feel disapoint... *haizz*

back to last week, i sick for a week. fever+cough+flu+pain all over the body... really suffer me. now i recover but then because of all the medicine, i feel tired. i am not sure about this, but i heard this from the doctor. everyday, dunno my mum give me drink what... but it seem help me a bit. hopefully i can become better.

i will have maths paper tomorrow... i believe it wont make me die but i still need to study... just now i revised on matrix.. OMG.. damn confusing and i hate it. also, i fleet back my second intervention test paper and saw my marks. BM: 77, BC: 72, BI: 24/35, Maths: 80, Add Maths: 56, Chemistry: 56, Physics: 42, Biology: 62, Moral: 75 and SJ: 82 for the first time. i was scolded by my dad because of this lousy result. so i promised my dad i will study harder. VERY STRESS!!!

next, today is 512, may teng's birthday. happy birthday la teng jie... since ur birthday falls on exam week, for sure we are not going to celebrate. hope you like the present.

may teng is behind me~

then, my friend in kuantan asked me whether want to join miracle youth conference in UPM or not... they joined last year and they told me it was very fun. but i cant give them an exact answer. im not sure with my time + tuition.... so hold it first~ *hehe*